Me.Selina.Nikkie
Dress – Valley Girl  /  Shoes – No.1 Shoes  /  Belt – Pagani
(Weird how the belt is the same price as the shoes. lol)

Last night was a blast at Majoe’s birthday. I organized it… Well co-organized it with Kua Led and finally, I was happy with the outcome of the party. I like how the design turned out even if it wasn’t exactly what I wanted. But it happens all the time. There are times when good ideas never work. I did have a lot of fun last night and I’m proud of myself with what I did.

I’m not going on full details on what happened at the party. But I gotta mention the crazy as cake fight at the end of the party. And I’ll post photos when I get them then hopefully the photos will show you the fun we all had last night. That was the best part of organizing an event – seeing the invited people how much fun they were having. The stress, the troubles and the problems were paid off by just the thank you and seeing the smiles on people’s faces. And the fact that they’re staying a bit longer just because they still don’t want to go.

People say I should be an event organizer. I answer, I don’t like the stress it’s giving me. I need a team with me and money to support this. But somehow, event organizing is my way of fulfilling my love for film because I imagine the event as to how it will appear in a film. It never occured to me to be an event organizer just because when I was a kid, I don’t make parties because I’m scared people won’t show up. It’s very embarassing when I wanted a huge as party and no one shows up. So i never make parties. I do have parties but only random ones like we’ll just think about going to our place and just have a pool party. That I know is going to be small but at least it’s not the embarassing type.

Event organizing is so much work and it takes ages of planning! But I’m surprised that friends actually asks me to help organize their party. It always starts with asking me if I could design the event and turns out, the people I help really needs help with not just the design but the whole thing. I love to help out, really! And I don’t know where all these event ideas are coming from but it’s coming out. It must have been because of too much Hollywood in my head. The parties, award shows, premieres, after parties, launches, fashion shows… I love to party. And luckily when I was growing up, I was able to go to different parties and events of my parents. And my grandma does a lot of parties as well. And also my mom organize events so I get tips from her. Just tips! That’s probably where I get ideas. The social life of my grandma! I swear, if we were in orange county, california or upper east side, manhattan, our family won’t miss all the charities and benefit events and stuff the rich family goes to coz of my grandma. She’s very sociable!

Anyway, so yeah… I’m still not thinking about going on professional events organizer. I’ll still fulfill my dreams of becoming an interior designer and actress before having events organizer as a sideline. But who knows? I might be infected by the family disease where we don’t actually do the career of the degree we finished. Events organizer… Only if it’s in Hollywood!

Photos coming soon! And also, a big shout out to God for being with me last night. Parties are million times better when God is with you and you share it with Him!

Anyway, I won’t blog about camp til it’s actually here. I’m blogging about something real personal… So here goes.

I’ll start with a question: What would you do when you like someone and he only sees you as a friend? One person told me, I shouldn’t waste my time over this person. And a few others encouraged me to admit it to him. The thing is, both do have a point.

The first one. True, why would I really waste my time over someone who I’ve hinted a million times and still couldn’t see or realize that I like him. But how will I know that he really likes me as just friends if I wouldn’t tell him, right? Which brings us to the point of the second answer.

Uggh.. It just upsets me that I am stuck in the middle of two things that makes sense. If one doesn’t, feel free to leave a comment.

Maybe I should tell you something about our friendship. Simply comfortable. Out of all the guys I liked (and admitted to myself), he’s the only one I’m comfortable with. Usually when I know I have a crush on someone, I normally start panicking inside and boom, no talking. I go on shy, quiet mode around the person. But with ‘him’, I’m still being Auie: crazy, blah and random. I pretty much open to him and I open up to him sometimes. I couldn’t fully open up because I’m not sure if he wants to listen to my dramas. Lol… but yeah, he’s far out different from all of the guys I liked. And yes, I have admitted to myself that I like him… Twice I’ve said to myself I’ll stop liking him. Twice I liked him again. I wanted to stop, listen to my friend who said I shouldn’t waste my time and I’m trying to.

I’m waiting for my last sign over at camp and see. If we’ve gone closer, I’ll tell him and it’s all or nothing. But at least I got it out of my chest. If nope, then I should better listen to the wiser one and let him be. It might be just attraction and not the real deal. But whatever, you might wanna argue. I can’t fully think coz my head is tired, so if you find the blog weird… It’s because my brain isn’t functioning well.

Looking forward to comments. If any would even read this.

… love is something you shouldn’t persuade your heart to feel.

… love is something that comes in the right time.

… love is something that takes a while before you see it.

… love is something you won’t be able to force.

… love is something that comes in the unexpected way.

… love is there.

No matter what fate brings you, love will always win in the end. So you just gotta be patient, ’cause LOVE doesn’t come overnight.

Ehhh… I’m just joining the club. Everyone seems to be in their love life mode and I needed something to right in the blog… So ehhh… well I just wanted to join in…. HAHAHA

BUT HERE’S the thing guys… just trust me for advice if you’re sure about it, because I’ve never experienced this. My experiences are only base on what I watch and read… Not in real life. Soon enough, I’ll be the one running to you for advice. So don’t blame me if you’ve trusted the wrong person… But I love you that’s why I’m helping…

Sigh…  I can honestly say, I’m glad I’m single!! Wooohhhooo…

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I’m at Ira’s place at the moment having our sleepover since for like a year now! Hahaha, a dear friend of ours just got back from Australia and it’s cool seeing him again. I missed John sooooo much…

Well, at this moment, I was just looking through facebook not really knowing what to do. I should be sleeping by now since I have to wake up at 8 coz I’m going uni hopping with Ivy and Majoe tomorrow! Err more like later since it’s 2am.

Well yeah, we’re going vic and massey tomorrow since we will go inquire about CUP and courses for next yr. I’m still wishing for permanent residency for Christmas so HOPEFULLY we get it coz i really want to go to school

Oh and speaking of Christmas, check this out:

1. You shall not leave ‘Christ’ out of Christmas, making it ‘Xmas.’ To some, ‘X’ is unknown.

2. You shall prepare your soul for Christmas. Spend not so much on gifts that your soul is forgotten.

3. You shall not let Santa Claus replace Christ, thus robbing the day of its spiritual reality.

4. You shall not burden the shop girl, the mailman, and the merchant with complaints and demands.

5. You shall give yourself with your gift. This will increase its value a hundred fold, and the one who receives it shall treasure it forever.

6. You shall not value gifts received by their cost. Even the least expensive may signify love, and that is more priceless than silver and gold.

7. You shall not neglect the needy. Share your blessings with many who will go hungry and cold if you are generous.

8. You shall not neglect your church. Its services highlight the true meaning of the season.

9. You shall be as a little child. Not until you become in spirit as a little one are you ready to enter into the kingdom of Heaven.

10. You shall give your heart to Christ. Let Him be at the top of your Christmas list.

Obey this Ten Commandments and you’ll definitely have the best Christmas ever… Especially the tenth commandmend!!

Anyway, have to go sleep… My textmate didn’t text back.. probably fell asleep.. LOL… *blush*

Oh and I’m gonna go put the photos up sometime from the YFC Step Up and today’s sleepover. And i’ll go talk about the Step Up sometime soon… Its the best ever!

Music: None… LOL they’re watching mtv i think

Also, not long ago… It was Friday last week (dad’s birthday) I had an audition for Toi Whakaari. I spent the whole time trying to stay focused and keeping my heart rate to normal since I felt like it’s going to fall anytime. I was the last to audition, which means there were 6 other people who auditioned that I had to watch before I had a go. I think I spent the entire time plotting ways on how I can run out of that door and not do it. Thankfully, my feet stayed on the ground and I was able to audition. It was cool when I was doing it. I thought I wouldn’t be able to do it, but I’m proud that I did it. Even if I won’t get in, I’m proud to be able to do the audition. It was my first ever audition, which is why it was a huge deal for me. And what’s great about it, I also met new people. You see, God doesn’t really want us to give things up, especially when we know we love it. And He sprinkles a few more extras on the way.

Well, that night was Angelo’s surprise birthday party. I’m sure you’re very surprised. But I wasn’t able to come, so Angelo, if you’re reading the blog, sorry wasn’t able to come on your 21st. Happy Late Birthday, though! I’m so glad to have you as a friend Thanks for everything and enjoy your 21st year. It’s not that bad

1. I just made a decision to apply in Toi Whakaari. It’s a drama school and hopefully I get in. Auditions are next this month, weekend of Dad’s birthday. I hope that’s a good thing Deadline of application was August 28. I went to the school August 27 and I just can’t help but imagine myself being in the school. I love it. Although there’s nervousness and cowardliness that popped into me when I imagine the audition. Nevertheless, I’m still doing it.

2. My brother’s birthday was 24th and gee! He has his own way of celebrating it. In the Hospital! He turned legal age of 18 (yes, legal to drink, drive and get crazy) and he decided to go to the hospital to celebrate. Lol, there are lots of drugs there! But whatever, it’s his tradition anyway.

3. YFC Fellowship. Ha! It was fun… It was also tiring in the end, coz I have loads of plates to clean. But whatever, it was worth it.

4. We’re to vacate the house in 45 days. And as of now we have less than 45 days. 30-something I guess. Reason is: the owner is going to use the house now. Ehhh, it’s ok. The house doesn’t give us any luck anyway. I was visited by someone or something in my room while I was sleeping three times already. It was beyond CREEPY!!! I never had that back in the Philippines. Let’s see if this new house will give us some luck.

5. I have a new path to take in school next year AGAIN! I think. I’m considering Interior Designing now. BUT i’m not sure… HELP??? Thing is, if i got accepted in Toi Whakaari, then I’m going there NO MATTER WHAT!!! And after three or four years (if I decided to Master in Directing) then I’ll go to University and take up Interior Designing while working as an actress. But if I don’t get in Toi, I’m not sure if I will do Film Studies or Interior Designing…. Another set of questions and decisions to make…. HELP?

Well, that’s it for now. And I think I’m changing designs soon. I’m getting rusty with designing lately. Geezzz… Be back later!

Music: the sound of breeze passing through the trees. It is music to the ears… sometimes.

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Saturday, we went to Tito Andy’s house for a get together since they just got back from the Philippines. I was completely bored and was hoping all the time I brought the laptop with me. Crazy moment #1: when I wished that I saw my youngest brother playing with a PSP and I borrowed so to lessen the boredom. But there was no Tekken in Carlo’s PSP… so I borrowed Ate Reg’s PSP. Then my brother had this whole thing connecting the two PSPs and we played Tekken. My youngest bro got bored and borrowed Tito Andy’s iTouch. I was like O.O!!! I was like to my brother: Wanna play tekken? Can i borrow? Random, I know. So we swapped. I got all excited inside and played with the iTouch. Ok… Apple always makes me crazy… I’m a mac freak, what can I say? Anyway, crazy coz after wishing I brought the laptop, I actually went online using the iTouch… I know… random… LOL

So anyway, when we went home I got all too excited to work on the new layout of Vanessa-Hudgens.ORG since it’s the first time I’ve done some designing since over a month ago. I boot the laptop and as soon as it reached the password thing, it went blank and closed. I was so gutted when I restarted it never did… O.o I was soooo frustrated I didn’t get a chance to go online and just finish the layout. I tried the power switch million times, but it did not work. My brother knew it wasn’t working, my dad tried it as well. So we pretty much all know that it wasn’t working. See crazy moment #5 below.

I fell asleep at 3am, I think, feeling sooooo bad. The next morning, I was a little late for church… But surprisingly, I was alive. Ha! Well, not a surprise anymore actually. Ever since YFC, I started becoming more alive in church. I was a bad catholic. LOL… Back at home we went looking for the receipt of the laptop so we can have it changed (it’s on warranty for 3 years) but with NO luck! My dad was having a bad mood because he was totally in need of a laptop to look for a job. Not my fault the computer went crazy. So we spent hours since the Saturday night looking for the receipt when…

Crazy moment #2: My dad called my godmother after lunch and told everything about the laptop and asked if she has the receipt… and *insert famous evil music here* she has it! Dad brighten up and asked my mom if she wanted to go to the city with him to have the laptop checked or changed. And HELLO! They’re going to the computer shop… I HAVE to be there… so I asked if I could come.

Crazy moment #4: All laptops are on SALE that day… It was those moments I wish I have money so I can just grab the laptop and pay. And yes, MacBook Pro was also on sale. O.O!!!! I played with the Macs while waiting for dad to take care of the laptop and estimated the prizes of the macs. I evaluated and have decided to go for the MacBook Pro 13″ or 15″… It costs about 2300-2900 approximately. Mom and Dad said they’ll help me get one once we get our permanent residency. Gosh, the things this PR thing could do: I could go to school now, I could work and I could get my own laptop!

I enjoyed my time just looking around the computers… Well, actually at the MacBooks coz none of the Windows PCs caught my attention. They are so 2008! Lol.. kidding. But with my plans to be a filmmaker, I think Mac is waaay better than windows. iMovie is millions better than Windows Movie Maker, seriously! I tried and used both already… I’m not kidding. What got my interest also was the camcorder. I saw this Sony camcorder… It costs 3k but it was totally awesome! I could do my video projects there. I just fell in love with it! I’m sooooo going to save up for it.

Crazy Moment #5: After feasting my eyes with a bunch of MacBooks, Dad was no where to be seen. He didn’t let us know that he was with the technicians trying to see what happened to the laptop. When he got back inside the shop, guess what he said to me. It was WORKING!!!! They opened the laptop and viola! It opened. It got up until the password thingy up to dad’s desktop!! What was that?!?! We like went to the city for nothing… Okay, not really nothing, I went out of the house after being bummed out, I was able to feast my eyes with the computers and see crazy moment #6.

We lingered around the shop for a while. Looked at computer softwares (SHOCKS!! I saw adobe premiere! It’s sooo cool! I want one. I’m so going to save up for it), televisions (Heath Ledger was on screen ), speakers and a whole lot before leaving. Bus was at 16th minute of the hour and we still had 15 more minutes or more, I think. I asked my mom for Starbucks coz I soo miss it now. She bought me Caramel Frap. Yumm *licks lips*… So I went in the food court to wait for my parents when…

Crazy Moment #6!!!!!: Dad saw Acin in the CD store and I saw she was with friends… Realized it were Alaek, Elyk and Anaoj… Ok… Weird names?? Those AREN’T their real names. I hid them… Coz 1, Not all of them are internet freaks like me, so they probably don’t wanna be mentioned and 2, I don’t want to sound… err whatever.. who knew, *cough* is probably reading this. My best friends know what I’m talking about… So yeah, they were there so I went all (yes, I mean it when I say I totally went crazy here) and get to hang out with them for an hour. I asked my parents if we could stay for a while (i was like “you’re hungry, right dad?! Come on… U said you were hungry!” When he actually didn’t… Hahaha). So they had dinner, I hang out with my friends. I hang out with Alaek the whole time and talked about what we could have talked about through text. But since I don’t have credit in my phone anymore, we couldn’t talk. Bummer! It was like we haven’t seen each other for years, when the last we saw each other was June 6. Ok that was weeks ago, it felt sooo long. I only get to see them once a month… Lucky if we get to go and hang out on a weekend.

What’s cool about these people is that they are TRUE friends. We may not all be the closest best friend type, but they are seriously the coolest people. Usually, if I see familiar faces in the mall or something, I’d be too shy to join in for a short talk or something. But it felt different with these friends. They’re even asking me if I would like to eat and join them. Elyk kept on asking if I’m sure I don’t want anything (which by the way, was sweet and of course I went crazy inside lol). But, yeah… LOL

No matter what the weekend was like (losing the laptop for a short while only to find it’s actually working and going to the city… for not the exact purpose you went there), God keeps you smiling at the end of the day. I seriously couldn’t help but smile the whole Sunday night… Seriously, no matter how and what, God answers your prayers even if it’s as simple as wanting candy or as big as traveling the world. He still answers it… at the right time. And sometimes, He’ll answer you by putting you in a funny experience just like what I had and you’ll end up cracking up laughing.

Music: Only Fooling Myself – Kate Voegele
This song is sooooo me! *And I like to pretend that… One day i’ll turn around I’ll see your hand reach out, I’m only fooling myself. And maybe when you smile it means you’d stay a while…” Seriously… Sunday afternoon… this was me and still am