Guess what I discovered today! Well, doing absolutely NOTHING can be absolutely tiring. Since I don’t go to school yet and I don’t have a job, I just stay in my room curled up in my bed thinking. And all I think about is just some random things like what would it be like to be in school, to study, to be in LA, my future plans that will probably never going to happen, people’s relationships, celebrity couples, what to eat, what to do, where is who, and all other random stuff that could enter my mind and seriously, it’s not healthy. I find it really stressful.
What I hate about too much thinking is that you get to find out things that are really, really frustrating. Right now, for the past months, I have realized how much I have missed so many things by not going to school. I mean, for example, three years ago, I graduated from high school in the Philippines and going to college is the next step. Taking a break from that is not a bad idea. But taking a break from it for 3 years definitely wasn’t the best idea there is. I feel like I don’t know anything anymore. It’s just one of the many things I realized that was pretty frustrating and I am not in the mood to list them all out. It’s.. err frustrating.
I’d rather feel physically exhausted than mentally exhausted. It means that you’re body is working out when you are physically tired. But mentally tired? Means you’re thinking too much and not taking a break. But how can I when I’ve got nothing to distract my mind. I need something to distract my mind. I’m not sure if jogging/walking would be good, since it’s also one of the times you get to think. I’ve already fixed the house, so no reason to do it again. HMM… or maybe I’ll fix my room instead. Err Whatever. I need something to distract me. Like study, maybe? Like get ready for school? ARGGG I’m thinking way too much again! Websites don’t even distract me anymore! This is sooooooooo stupid!!
Anyway, if you can suggest things to do that is not making websites, getting a job and going to school, please do share. I’d appreciate that
Music: I Won’t Disagree by Kate Voegele
^^ I love this song! It’s so me right now. It’s what I feel towards.. err him